My Heart and Other Black Holes. Jasmine Warga. Young Adult/Contemporary. 302 pages. No rating. [Source: Bought from a friend]
“Anyone who has actually been that sad can tell you that there’s nothing beautiful or literary or mysterious about depression.”
Sixteen-year-old physics nerd Aysel is obsessed with plotting her own death. With a mother who can barely look at her without wincing, classmates who whisper behind her back, and a father whose violent crime rocked her small town, Aysel is ready to turn her potential energy into nothingness.
There’s only one problem: she’s not sure she has the courage to do it alone. But once she discovers a website with a section called Suicide Partners, Aysel’s convinced she’s found her solution: a teen boy with the username FrozenRobot (aka Roman) who’s haunted by a family tragedy is looking for a partner.
Even though Aysel and Roman have nothing in common, they slowly start to fill in each other’s broken lives. But as their suicide pact becomes more concrete, Aysel begins to question whether she really wants to go through with it. Ultimately, she must choose between wanting to die or trying to convince Roman to live so they can discover the potential of their energy together. Except that Roman may not be so easy to convince.
I have mixed feelings about this book. It’s pretty ironic how the line I quoted at the top (which is a quote from the book itself) says that there nothing romantic or beautiful or literary about depression, but this book seems to be doing just that. I have many issues regarding this novel, few of them being the romanticism of depression and suicide. There is nothing right about it. I knew that it tackled that subject but I didn’t know just how bad it was. Now that I look back, I realized how much I wasted my time reading this book, hence my lack of ratings. I originally rated this 2-3 stars but through analysis and personal thought, it’s not deserving of a rating at all.
Maybe I’m overdramatic, but that’s how I see it.
If you’re into shallow romance revolving around romanticism of everything wrong, by all means, read it.